Sleep….

I want to start off by saying I entered motherhood expecting to “not sleep for the next 18 years”.. Or that’s what people said. I’m starting to believe it might be true. 

Scarlett will be two next month, and we still don’t have a routine. Just when I think we have figured things out she throws me for a loop and reminds me I have no idea what I’m doing. For a personality type like me that is hard. I don’t like not being good at something. I’m a nurse. I’m used to fixing things.

I wanted to come to you fully transparent. The purpose for this post is to remind you that it’s okay to admit that you’re struggling. I do more often than people know. One area in particular is during those hard moments when I can’t get her to go down at night. I truly don’t know what to do. Do I discipline her for not laying down and going to sleep. I mean she is still so little, but SMART.

One part of my brain says, “She is only little for so long. It’s just sleep. Pick her up and hold her. Bring her to bed with you. Don’t be mad that your child wants you to hold her to go to sleep (at 2am… )”. Then the other side of my brain says, “She is smarter than you think. It’s okay to be frustrated and have to take deep breaths to calm down. Make sure she is fed, dry, and safe, and lay her down. She will go to sleep when she is tired. She will be okay”. 

Is anyone else with me? Do I sound terrible? This is really the thoughts that battle back and forth in my mind during situations like this.

I don’t know the right solution. I could tell you some tips I’ve read on other blogs or on instagram, but the truth is every day is different. Every child is different. Every parent is different. There is no right or wrong. All we can do is pray that God guides us and helps us be the best mom to our children we can each day. It’s okay to mess up. We all do, and it’s okay to ask your child for forgiveness when you feel you could’ve done something better. That teaches them to do the same when they are older.

If you’re in this season with me or about to enter it, send me a message. I would love to pray for you.  If you have been there before, pray for me lol…

Just know you are doing great, mama. Remember that each day is a new day, and THIS TOO SHALL PASS. That’s a bittersweet reality.